Crossroads

I’m sitting at my creative hub (aka desk), with my surroundings draped in slow flashing christmas lights (they are so pretty), and a glass half a glass of raspberry lemonade (because I’m fancy like that), staring straight into the cold eyes of incoming crossroads.

So this is the point in my life where things change. I’m in the last year of sixth form and it scares me to think that on the topic of my future, this time next year is a complete blur for me. A pit of blackness. I have no clue what I’ll be doing or where I’ll be doing it, I just know that it’s all going to change. My university application went off over a month ago, and I have since received some offers. I won’t say where they are from, but as a general idea, one is from a university in London and one from outside of London. I’ve also done an interview somewhere else, but based on my past interviewing skills, there is a strong chance that it will have lessened my chances of getting offered. But alas, that is another story.

What I’m trying to say, is that now I have some decisions to make. Obviously, I have to work hard this year to make any of these options realistic, but I also need to come to terms within my head what I want from my future. And that’s really difficult. It seems impossible to take the right perspective on any of this, because it’s so hard to tell. The truth is that I want to go to London, that’s where my heart lies. I think it’s time for that adventure.

I took a break from writing this and now I’m back on Christmas Day. It’s been brilliant. I received so much cool stuff, ate so many potatoes and realised how well my friends know me. Some notable highlights in terms of presents was a film journal where I can write personal reviews on any films I watch, a play from my current favourite playwright Enda Walsh and a gallon of chocolate.

I hope your day has been equally wonderful. And your year. 2013 was a tricky year for me, but a necessary one I think. A lot of bad things happened but also quite a few awesome things. That’s always the way, right? Nonetheless, I’m excited for the incoming year. May all of you have a fantastic time. Merry Christmas!